어딘지 Audinjee - Towards Backward on the End of the Cliff

1. Say Today 0:00
2. Care of Being a Sweetheart at Heart 4:13
3. Outside, Inside 8:01
4. July 5th 9:46
5. Lose Again 13:15
6. The Invisible 17:01
7. a Carefree 20:45
8. City Lights 24:17
9. Curled From the Roots pt.1 28:32
10. False Truth 32:08
11. From Where I Used to Be 35:46
12. Don't Ask Me 38:29
13. the Quiet One 41:53
14. 21st Century Depressed Boy 44:02
15. Wander Out 48:06
16. Last Time You Ever See Me 52:15

1. Say Today 04:13

Don’t ask me how I’ve been
All your fidgets should’ve figured
There are figures you wouldn't see
til you place them back to their right place

Hope that’s all you’ve got to say today

Make a decision that’s worthy of at least
(Dead eyes, I looked down at corners)
Roamed around where the lights remorse
(print out your candid look on the face)

You warned me with flowers in your eyes
Before the walls began to roar
“Should be the last”, you say
What could be the first thing done so far

Don’t make me talk

When I come around I see nothing
(When believing is not seeing)
There’s a figure you can’t see in the flashback
And It’s bigger than lighter’s charcoal

So I can say out loud that
I don’t even recall any more about this
Been a while since, wonder what made it worse
Smoke it away, you’ve done it before, like countless time
Really want this ritual kept forever?
or let it say today

today’s not the day, you know it
just let the words coming
Hope that’s all I’ve got to say
Hope that’s all I need to stay on loose

Turn all the lights out
You don’t have to stay today
Leave your blankets on

2. Care of Being a Sweetheart at Heart 03:48

I need a place to think
what I would do when you come as a lie
And then again It started again,
it makes me feel so tired
Would it help to let you know who I am?
who makes you feel much worse than It was

The picture I sent was still at the door
The phone’s still roaring
you don’t know how to receive
(Or how to hang up)

The place that sent myself on time
is still much better off to know
Not knowing what It takes to know

How do you cope when you don’t want to see
(Just let me cut some slack, I just can’t act like your metal man)
Not afraid to say don’t have what It takes

I need a place to think
what I would do when you come as a lie
And then again It started again,
it makes me feel much tired
Would it help to let you know who I am?
Who makes you feel much worse than It was

Sliding through what’s already defined
No chance of having a clue, that’s true
The center of the picture is clear, I just juggle a bit
you better off not to know
I’d like to go to any other places
(Just let me cut some slack, I just can’t act like your metal man)
I’m not ready to be the one

I need a place to think
what I would do when you come as a lie
And then again It started again,
it makes me much tired
Would it help to let you know who I am?
Who makes you feel much worse than It was

I made a great decision that
wouldn’t hurt nobody else
But then again you said again
that made me feel so useless
Would it help to let you know who I am?
Who makes you feel much worse than It was

3. Outside, Inside 01:45

The dark side faces wear off as you wake up with yesterday's clothes
Too hard to demand yourself to get up and clean them off
Confronting ceiling that has been molding for years
but settled on an agreement you're still fine to go

been searching for a reason to give up
found myself justifying
outside, inside
where you don't want to move around

Transparent windows exposed the missing links of your hatred
soon to be found in a file you've been trying to hide
who made you wear a blindfold that chases things that make you kill
you said you'd put your thoughts together inside but you know you lied

been searching for a reason to give up
found myself justifying
outside, inside
where you don't want to move around

been searching for a reason to give up
found myself justifying
outside, inside
where you don't want to move around

4. July 5th 03:28

saw you in the middle of the street
where you passed yourself a long ago
Tried to see you in the eyes, tried to face you without
Any grins, I swallowed

curling at the room inside the head
Echoes evolve, keep your light on
without noticing
It fades like a song we hear under the moon
Can I speak on behalf of myself?

See you there around the corner
Where feel like strangers stare at you, just like
Someone who belongs to nowhere
Someone who doesn’t care of
on anything
Keep swallowing

across the road, there’s shadow spinning, unintended
How could you tell, without noticing
an undersong no longer holds you
ether only exists when you don't accept the reality

5. Lose Again 03:45

The focus is out of frame, gone lost
You pleaded once again
Not the one who tries to love you,
You got yourself a timeout this time
Being precious means
You can’t have control over yourself
Heart beating fast but nobody notices,

Whether or not
You will remain as the beloved one
Everyone knows that
No one told me this was shot
The pleads disguised as sincerity

Suit yourself, you loved to watch
The scene you finally made
The award goes to this year’s trooper,
Bestow them with your dignity

Cut in half

Hope you’re proud of yourself
The sighs in silence didn’t help at all
Behold whatever that is
It won’t be long till I take them

Then act like mean it, while you can
Don’t be mean, you’ll lose again
Should get up and take your sickness
It won’t be long till I take them
Don’t be mean, you’ll lose again

6. The Invisible 03:44

Smiling with your teeth perhaps is good for the cope
The invisible man, who you wanted to be
And I’m gonna let all your missions failed 
Make sure to be stuck to where it belongs

I never wondered why do I felt like has done
Just let me live a life with a leaf of the sun
The hedonism won’t do shit for your suffering, you bet
Don’t let them decide how you really feel

The beauty of living dead, how brilliant it is
Fatal survive, I’ll be spading in time
Years have been heard of their flawless work rotate
If there were better to stay
I wouldn’t be there

Smiling always comes after bursts of a tear
Why do I have to smile if there’s always a tear
I had already let all my missions failed 
Please don’t be stuck to where it belongs

The beauty of living dead, how brilliant it is
Fatal survive, I’ll be spading in time
Years have been heard of their flawless work rotate
If there were better to stay
I wouldn’t be there

7. a Carefree 03:32

I don't know what’s there to come
Just waiting for tomorrow to sit here
sat covered my ear before sunset
the scents of today will remain there

til I let them go
again, again, again, again....
wish I could catch you tomorrow, carefree

A carefree hears the sound of letting go
I can hear the fear of losing
“you're too harsh on yourself”, that’s what she said
But the sense will always be the one who put a trick on me
lure me better than anyone else

A carefree hears the sound of letting go
I can hear the fear of losing
You’re too harsh on yourself, that’s what she said
But the sense will always be the one who a put a trick me,
Lure me better than anyone else

Just stay with me
Don’t make me hear
Too far from the decision I’ll go
again, again, again, again....
again, again, again, again....

8. City Lights 04:14

It started being quiet as it turned blue
When the surroundings become who I am 
that’s what I said without being mindful of
being tough on myself who can’t beat nothing  
I can hear you holding your rage 
range misses the point that should’ve hit
It’s already gone long far I can’t make it 
till the night when everything picked their points
Could you tell me what’s the point of all this?
Act like a know-it-all, as everyone already tells 
The spotlight is not for you, so why not pray, and call it a day?
The city lights’ been holding it fettered
too bright to see what’s ahead of me

Don’t say as if you could fool them, 
You’re not tough enough to be the one

(brought yourself to the spot where you can’t deny
stuck in 20, young till die forever)

The more you see the smaller you‘re gonna be 
The computing isn’t gonna do anything

So when should I stop hurting myself
Since when have I been holding the wrong cards 
It doesn’t matter if it’s the last stop, 
If it ran out of brake fluid from the start

Apologies for myself
when the city has its light
radiating self-harming thoughts 
not keen on it..just 
(don’t mind me if it sounds too obvious for you)

You’ll never like it as much as they do
What can you expect, It’ll never be good enough
Been lit up on blood, as they calibrate for nothing
And you’ll be the one who takes this

It’s already gone long far I can’t make it 
till the night when everything picked their points
It’s already gone long far I can’t make it 
till the night when everything picked their points

So hopeless, what are you gonna do now?
Stuck In the middle of nothing
In the middle of the city lights
It wouldn’t go as you planned, you’re clueless

9. Curled From the Roots pt.1 03:36

set your fire on the scene that moves
till the day it moves from your eyes- shut
Curled from the roots and lead onto one other

try to fill you is not enough for us
When only loved ones could barely fill the hole
You came inside and gave a hug to the hole
I couldn’t see what was inside your eyes

Maybe you’d wanted me to take you to the spot

Within four months passing by
Days are a lot to count
Yet short to talk about
How we feel about each other

Let’s go someday
Where the sun glows
So why do you bother counting days
If there’s still things to speak
Let them blow through our hays
you stay the same

10. False Truth 03:38

Something that let you in, now it made you seethe all over the places 
Keep on falling on misery games
No, you don’t know, except for anything that seemed to be true 
What holds you stuck is that you try to use it
Talk to my nose, they say they’ll visit you when say goodbye

You don’t want to know the truth if anything 
I’d rather be furious at your misery
Tell me how is different between the false and the truth you hold
You know it doesn’t make a difference 
Tell me how it should make any distance
I don’t want anything closer to the false truth you’re seeing

Someone who counts you in   
Now she makes you feel like you’re failing 
Hold on, you’re still in the middle of a game
How does it feel to be the one who doesn’t have the control over anything
Does it sound bad enough?  
Get up and go, before falling on knees then say goodbye

The false truth is no longer holding the belief
There’s nothing wrong with the illusion you’ve got,
Just play yourself
Below the lane, you’ve got nothing to lose 
You don’t have to see what’s around you, better cover yourself
had better not sit like the dead, If that’s a way to learn

Don’t stop applauding, you’re making them big
No, you don’t know, please don’t wait for her to give you the proof 
I hope your play ends with the truth you hold  
Because that’s what's been given out to you, you’re doing it great

You don’t want to know the truth if anything 
I’d rather be furious at your misery
Tell me how is different between the false and the truth you hold
You know it doesn’t make a difference 
Tell me how it should make any distance
I don’t want anything closer to the false truth you’re seeing

11. From Where I Used to Be 02:42

Sat under a bridge that crossed to the escape of indecision
Closer to the point where I failed to disguise it as a detour

Within a body that has nothing to connect
Only towards backward on the end of the cliff
Takes a long to realize

How does feel to be surrounded, only hear yourself?
Regressing before the midpoint that would give you a handshake

Miss the time that already passed, whose treasure became worthless
Who can tell how I feel, when I see myself through the reflection

Walking on a bridge leads to a feeling of isolation
Right on the spot where I fail to understand
Within a body that has nothing to connect
Only towards backward on the end of the cliff
Takes a long to realize

Inside a feeling that has nothing to surround and hear
Inside a feeling that has nothing to surround and hear
Inside a feeling that has nothing to surround and hear
Inside a feeling that has nothing to surround and hear

12. Don't Ask Me 03:24

There’s nothing you should hear from me
There’s no reason to listen from someone like me
Stepping out until morning so I can sleep

I don’t have anything to tell you
There’s no reason to trust me, you know it right
Dragged down under sunset
The screen never turned black

tread around the clock that sits still
Figuring out how it will go
still middle of overcoming
that wouldn’t go nowhere, it would not

You know that I’m good at making excuses
That wouldn’t help nobody else
Let me swing like a tide as I do
Don’t make me stay up all night

bogged down myself, bogging again
into the numerous conundrums
Only to find myself in the pit disaster
In the pit the questions

tread around the clock that sits still
Figuring out how it will go
still in the middle of overcoming
that wouldn’t go nowhere, it would not

You know that I’m good at making excuses
That wouldn’t help nobody else
Let me swing like a tide as I do
Don’t make me stay up all night

13. the Quiet One 02:08

I’ve got so many things to tell
that you left on the table
didn’t look so bad, honestly
don’t have to speak out because
they’ll come out when the time has come
and fuck you up more than you see
no need to call them out, you know you don’t want to

running out of things to excuse,  excuses only will remain out
only you can see why you’re in so much hurry

because you’re insecure, believe it or not
it’ll take much out of you more than anyone else, you may think
doesn’t matter which one is on you
it’s been already there since you felt

can’t get over the thoughts
thoughts of getting caught by myself
people that you’re scared of
dying to show everyone that you got it, no shit

running out of things to excuse,
excuses only you’ll care
everyone will understand you why, the reason you just can’t be quiet

you think you’re insecure,
you think it is the worst
so that’s why you left it on the table
with the seats, seats are unattended
hope someone comes

14. 21st Century Depressed Boy 04:04

You know, that I don’t have any right to complain.
privileges show that I've got time, enough to be hesitating
transparent roots tell that I had options to detour
Can't give you one reason why I chose to be like this
fetishize the world underneath, too scared to pull it out

Sit, sit, sit, sit
Sit, sit, sit, sit

'Cause I'm a 21st century depressed boy
endless time to feel the guilt
Too cold to linger on

scream through the panel
sympathy only remains
until you scroll them out
less than seconds to get there
takes forever to march yourself out
can't read the bytes no more
only bite myself to make it all sure
equality only provided by mathematics

cause I'm a 21st century depressed boy
endless time to fill the guilt
Too coward to linger on
cause I'm a 21st century depressed boy
endless time to fill the guilt
Too happy to move on

Sit, sit, sit, sit
Sit, sit, sit, sit

21st century depressed
21st century depressed
21st century depressed
boy

15. Wander Out 04:08

A place stuffed with a crystal-clear hiss
Tempts one to another place of miss

Has its sorrow piled on the shelf, hasn't it been done?  
Would you leave it alone still?

Had to take it as soon as I made it full,

Full of dreams that were made of rushing in

Time only made it worse

So I decided to clear them all out

The hollow has got its seat on the first
Where we can put our hands in,

but not with the comfort, only cold silence in between
Put stuff, overstuff it with your ambitious 
Fill it out with the coldest thing you've got
The story hasn't been compiled yet though

Anyone can tell how it'll go, anyway

Been hearing it all along

That it's trying to invade the fantasy

Pour on the state of mind that ends in a sight

So, at the end of the first attempt, nonetheless,  
We've already seen what's the worst inside, not the last
The alert goes out to mix things inside, did we miss?
So, you're going to just leave it alone wandering off

16. Last Time You Ever See Me 04:32

Stepped out of the rhythm that you barely danced,

The pounding still hasn't moved the place  
You thought that people staring at you, laughing at you

So you tried to get the shit again    
People you don't feel like to be with

cross the line that hasn't been drawn yet

You tried to talk them out
but they couldn't hear  your loud voice, that you tried to get so bad

"This is the last time you ever see me”  
The thought you hold, you hold on forever
Try to make up your mind, oh you forgot  
That's what made put yourself on this spot

You don't dare to say this to everyone
You think you love  who don't know you that well  
Everyone thinks you don't have what it takes,

You can't complain since it's true

You said it's not the day to say

I hope you decide which one is a worthy decision

Hope it takes you to your state of mind  
Where you can at least look back on yourself

And that’s not all of the lost things you had 
Chances belonging on the green roof 
You kicked them out just to learn how long it takes
to get back while you're still alive
Haven't cleared them up yet, I know you won’t
Knowing which way you’re heading and you already feel
You’re just collecting till you can finally speak
 

어딘지 Audinjee - Towards Backward on the End of the Cliff

released September 6, 2024

Shin Gyungwon: Vocal, Guitars, Bass, Drums. Keyboards, Recording, Producing, Mixing
Zach Sch: Mastering, Mixing, Flutes on "July 5th"

Recorded during July 2024 - August 2024